does it hurt in your heart like it hurts me?

i'm sleeping cuddled against a giant teddy to get me through the nights.

i miss you and i hate the fact you kept going like we did just drifting away from real life like they did. 

now we're apart and you're more social again and stopped working out like you used to because i know that workout gave you an excuse to get away from me and why the fuck didn't you just end it earlier than me pressuring you to do some work in our relationship.

oh that's right cause your a fucking asshole and would rather watch me be happy at whatever cost that was to you but really you just made me more miserable and now i'm just torn and broken.

god, i'm a fool.